“And what is the student doing in the office?” asked Zarathustra.
The student answered: “I make songs and sing them; and when I make songs, I laugh, I cry, and hum: thus I exercise my spirit. With singing, crying, lauging, and humming, I exercise the spirit that is my spirit. But what do you bring us as a gift?”
When Zarathustra had heard these words he bid the student farewell and said: “What could I have to give you? But let me go quickly lest I take something from you!” And thus they separated, the young one and the man, laughing as two boys laugh.
But when Zarathustra was alone he spoke thus to his heart: “Could it be possible? This young man in the office has not yet heard anything of this, that his spirit is dead!”
I am in mourning. I am in mourning for my passion, my interest, the liveliness and caprice and energy of my curiosity. It is irretrievably gone; it has parted; it has left. All my curiosity is idle curiosity, curiosity for lack of anything worthwhile to occupy my thoughts.
I am in the middle of a series of large and serious changes in my environment, habits, circumstances, opportunities and routines. I’m changing cities, jobs, friends, occupations, direction in life. I’m weathering a tremendous quake, my world is being shaken to its roots—and no one else has felt a tremor. This man, whatever the old cliché might say, is an island. An old volcano, falling dormant.
NP: Interpol, Stella Was a Diver and She Was Always Down
Hang in there Mike! I’ve noticed the tremors for a couple of years, just didn’t know they were getting so much worse lately. Give me a call this weekend. 303-934-3298. I’d call you but I’m totally broke, and I’m out of long distance time until I get paid next Friday.
Comment by ben—November 8, 2002 @ 5:00 pm